When one individual looks at another they see an image, an idea of
whome the person is in front of them...They make an assumption.
An assumption that can make that persons day to day life better or worse.
I can admit its hard to tell who the person is if they do not reveal
them selves to you..they could always be someone who is nice and gentle
and always happy, they can always have a smile on their face and seem
like the happiest person in the world. But deep inside they can be
falling apart in a million peices, trying to figure out what is going
inside. They could be lost looking for that light at the end of the
tunnel. They can be hurt. They can be so many other things.
But what they are to you is a facade an image that they want you to see
No person wants the people around them to know the true hurt that they feel.
They want to hide but cant so they put up an image that everyone sees
and this is when their friends and family always wonder why did this
happen? That is if something does happen.
Well I have an inside look of someones thoughts and feelings.....
Someone who is lost...and wondering why all the time...
Someone who is confused...and broken...
Someone who puts up that facade
Someone that wants someone to be at the end of the tunnel to catch them if they fall
"Im depressed, I feel helpless. The other day I almost slit my wrist. I
always wonder if something would happen would they understand. Probally
not they never do. As usual they would be dissapointed. instead of
trying to live up to their standards I cant take it anymore. This is
the last time I will fail. I just want it to end. I wish they would
understand that I try for their approval. I dont love them as I should
I feel as their daughter i have to. Deep Inside I dont!"
"My thoughts my memories, my experiences, dissapointments, mistakes are
seen through my art and blogs, pictures and journal, and my friends
have always known they true me. Well not what I think but who I am as a
person I dont have to hide this from them and I shouldnt have to hide
it from you guys either. I should be able to come to you for everything
I should be able to come to you when Im hurt or scared but instead Im
afraid of you of what you may say or do. If they would liek to know
more about me they could always just look at my friends for help."
"They have always just known the fake me. The me that tried very hard
to be that daughter. I hid things cause I knew they would hate me more
than they do now. I wanted to be an artist or a wedding planner thats
not good enough for them instead I suffer doing something else."
"and they wonder why I do so bad. Its not my passion for godsake if they only knew what made me happy."
"I just want to scream I cant take this pain any more I cant force myself to be happy anymore."
"Will I ever actually be happy, Trully"
"I guess Ill never know"
Hurts a hard thing to leave behind it usually comes with you where ever
you go, You can never run away from it no matter how hard you try it
will always be right there. You can fight, You can hide it but deep
inside your always the one who knows that you are hurt! and theres
nothing anyone can do to fix that. The only people are the ones who
cause the hurt!
